Here we find a unique struggle. The Lilith in Capricorn native wants 2 things simultaneously. She wants stability and freedom from financial fear, and connection to humanity and spirituality. This native knows on some level that these two things are a struggle individually, never mind attempting to find them at the same time. She knows she can’t have both, but she tries..oh yes, she tries very hard.
Why? Because this is a native that has been hurt by relying too much on others who have not only let her down, but used these needs against her. This trait is often found in those who have suffered from emotional or physical abuse by others. She is determined to find a balance that comes from her own will and determination divorced from needing anyone else, even while she wishes with her whole heart, for someone to find her existence valuable and cherished.
She is on a determined path of proving she can do it alone…she needs other people to succeed, but she will never, ever admit it.
She has suffered quite a lot, and this makes this native all too aware of the power of trusting others, which is why the situation is difficult. She can have stability if she works really hard, but her need for spiritual connection requires something in the area of giving up control to the universe and this is something she simultaneously longs for and fears at the same time.
This native longs, but will not ask for what she wants. She might even manufacture a false sense of security or build walls that have big giant “Keep Out” signs.
The secret she desperately wants to hide, is that she wants people to choose her, but will not ask them to do so…for fear that the wrong sort will use that vulnerability to return her to a past she is still healing from.
Lilith in Capricorn people are extraordinary survivors. They endure with a stamina and determination that would stun people, had they any clue of the natives past. Most would never even suspect that immense amount of healing this native has undergone to get where she is today. These natives give off an aura of rigid stoicism. To show vulnerability takes an immense trust, and this natives biggest challenge is let someone in to see it.
When the only way to get to something better is to go through the conflict, this native won’t stop, will never stop fighting. They will have endured things that others cannot even contemplate.
If this native ever does overcome her fear of letting herself be out of control and vulnerable with others, the world will probably be stunned by their commitment to the path forward, they will seek it even to their last breath.