I miss you dammit!

I miss you dad. I miss you. I miss you. I fucking miss you! You annoyed me, frustrated me, and sometimes you made me soo soo mad. But…you also made me laugh, and think, and learn really important aspects of being a proper adult living with integrity.

I have your smile. My child, Z has your smile too. July 2nd I didn’t comment on it being the day you died to anyone, but, it definitely affected my workday.

I am soo mad I didn’t get to tell you how mad you made me…how much I loved you! How much you annoyed me, aggravated me, confounded me and how much I reluctantly admired you while trying not to care about your damned nit-picky opinion. You are completely the source of my stubborn nature, my overwhelming sense of right and wrong, my unshakeable sense of integrity. My inability to properly express my vulnerability and my love. You, I resemble you..soo soo much!

I fucking miss you!

When I first discovered that you were also a Virgo and a Cancer in Love, my affection for TMW5T became much clearer. He resembles a guy you would have approved of. A guy you would have enticed into ganging up on me for various “mess with Bekki” endeavors. I know you would like him, and that makes me like him even more.

I miss you dad. I miss you. I really, really, miss you.

I hope they have fireworks and campsites where you are. You’d like that.

I love you.

Your, Bexter

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I am B (call me BB and I will gut you) I like daisies, books, and men who understand the wisdom of Kermit the Frog. I refer to my favorite person as TMW5T Why? because if he had 6 I'd call him TMW6T, duh!!

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