The suck list


You ever notice that people keep track of things they WANT to do, but never stuff they have EXPERENCED and wished they hadn’t? Like, they create these bucket lists of things they want to do before they die, but never give themselves respect for all the stuff they have LIVED through.

I call it the SUCK LIST.

Here’s some of mine:

  • Alcoholic Parents
  • Dyslexia
  • Parental Divorce
  • Foot/leg operations (2)
  • Stitches (22) left thigh (Step-father)
  • Physical abuse
  • Sexual assault
  • Poverty
  • Gallbladder attacks
  • Gallbladder removal
  • Childbirth (though celebratory still very painful and thus counts as suck)
  • C-section
  • Infidelity (not mine)
  • Divorce
  • Separation from child (sigh*)
  • Sexual Harassment
  • Less than ideal living circumstances.
  • Broken heart
  • Fibromyalgia
  • Joint Arthritis
  • Loss (Step-mother, Father, Grandmother, Grandfather, Brother)
  • Life

TBH my list is rather manageable compared to the Suck list of others. I’ve not experienced oppression or persecution due to my skin color, race, culture or sexual inclination. I know my privilege and I don’t consider my list better or worse than anyone else’s, actually I’m quite lucky. I call it the SUCK list but, it’s a list of things I have overcome. I’d like to think the things I’ve overcome are like scars or tattoos now, mine to memorize and share.

Published by Bexley Benton. (Pen name)

I am B (call me BB and I will gut you) I like daisies, books, and men who understand the wisdom of Kermit the Frog.

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