This past week was hard. It was hard on my body, hard on my emotions, hard on my mind. I’m kinda exhausted on all levels and it is, legit, making all my worst worries and self-talk double in size.
On Thursday, it, not only rained, but it rained 8 hours during an incredibly busy day. It was emotionally draining to say the least! I hate days like this more, because shoppers tend to be much more disrespectful during busy days. I almost got run over at least 3 times, people use rain as an excuse to leave their carts anywhere they want, and customers are way way waaayy more impatient with waiting for us to pass before driving past us (which is to say, they stop waiting and start driving..and basically scare us all half to death!) My co-workers get triggered, customers get triggered, I get triggered. Being empathetic means it feels like toxic soup I’m swimming in. Not good! Friday and Saturday were just as bad, but less rain (Thank Dog!) I sincerely hate holidays. I use to love them, but all they mean to me these days, is complete mayhem during a pandemic.
So, today I’m just gonna retract and reconnect. I think I’ll sleep more than usual, rest without prioritizing anything, and just be at rest without contemplating any issues or concerns.
I need deep breaths and a lot of patience. A certain clip of a certain someone giggling madly (that is currently circling the internet) will be utilized because it’s the first time I’ve EVER heard TMW5T laugh out loud, even maniacally…I need more of that please/thank you!